I’ve had enough of tastes of what I want in a man. You’ve put me thru the best. You’ve showed me what I wanted thru the people I’ve dated, spoke to, and passed by. And I loved every single one of them. They are all absolutely great. Just never gonna work out.. If I could take one thing from each person you have me the opportunity with and put it in one person, that would be amazing! Could you do that? It’s a lot to ask for, but hopefully that’s what I’m worth.
“A.” I’d take the like/love out of that first person I was serious with. The way “A” loved me. The way “A” called me every day, the words, the actions, the care, the jealousy, the like, the want. The butterflies, that good feeling of always being wanted and being showed off to the world.. “Something always brings me back to you, it never takes too long.”
“B.” Then I’d take the actions of my great friend that everyone wants for me. The way “B” treated me, spoiled me, watched out for me, showed his appreciation for me, the way “B” did everything for me without asking me for anything. The way “B” has a bond with everyone in my family, the way “B” gets along with me, the way “B” would rather be with me and my family than me and my friends. “I will be a part of your family.”
“C.” And this minor one, “C’s” jealousy, “C’s” want to know that I care for him, the want of reassurance that I’m still there, the want of my appreciation, the want of my presence. “I was mad cause you didn’t appreciate what I told you. You didn’t appreciate me.”
Dear God.. I know you’ll bless me with a man greater than all these individuals. I know that you will provide whenever the time is right. But dear Lord I ask you for my future husband to be every bit of what I deserve, I ask that he has those qualities plus more. I ask that he’ll care for his children like how he would care for his mother. I ask that, that he loves you more than I do, that he cares, loves, supports, provides, and has a mature mind. A husband that will lift me on my feet, one that will keep me entertained and wanting to know more or for more. Someone that I always want to come back to. Anyone according to your will.
I know I’m still not ready now, and I’m just testing the waters to see what I want and don’t want. And I’m not looking, cause I know you’ll provide.
But dear Lord, my husband is according to you. Whomever you chose for me. Make him a cutie please. Haha.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.” — 1 Corithians 13:4-8